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Confessions of an anonymous blond
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-Author Unknown  
- He blames my "moodiness" on the re-engagement, apparently I'm "always more of a problem" when we're talking marriage again. In reality, my stress has been attributed to handling the situation that could have stood in the way of moving forward with that plan.. That was because I wanted to move forward, maybe that was my downfall ultimately. The stress I was under had nothing to do with him. But as far as he is concerned, it's always all about him. The arguments have worn whatever was left of my faith or confidence in moving forward. It was a lovely night filled with fighting, fighting with the back of his head because he was actually fighting with me while playing his game on the PC (couldn't even lay off of it and give me his full attention there, now that's a certifiable sickness), and accusing me of "trying to change him" because I asked him if he would enjoy it if all he ever talked to was the back of my head day in and day out, or if he would in fact feel like I just didn't hold him very high on my priority list if something else was so important that I couldn't give him my attention, even when a problem was present. That was me "trying to change him." And he told me to stop "trying to change him." I wasn't aware that wanting him to see it from my side was trying to "change" him. This isn't the guy I met and developed feelings for, this wasn't the guy that courted me and went out with me and talked to me and (at one time) seemed to have so much in common with me. He is not the same person, but claims that he is and that I have no right "trying to change" how he's always been. Am I losing my mind here?? Am I really so inconsiderate to point out that it's disrespectful to find that your partner doesn't even address you face to face when you're arguing, that he chooses to fucking argue with you while STILL PLAYING HIS GAME ONLINE? How is this normal???? How am I the one that is being unreasonable, I don't understand? Why is he trying to manipulate me into believing that everything is somehow MY fault? If I need my head examined, so the fucking hell does he. Period. prev | next*(Please Note Nickname Revisions; 'Tyler'-my boyfriend- is now Adam. 'Julianne' is now 'Baldy.' 'Druggie' is now 'Crotch Stain'. 
 
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